Being Wooed by God

Being Wooed by God
Current mood: drained

I don't even like God half the time. But even though I don't like Him, and even though He knows that, He keeps doing stuff that I can't begin to comprehend. I feel like I'm being torn apart because part of me thinks "Screw you, God, I don't care" half of the time, but even in spite of that, He keeps showing me that He's real and that He's paying attention to me and that He loves me so very much. He loves me even when I don't like Him back. He keeps talking to me, even when I think He's fake. He pours out His glory when I doubt Him. And He gives me comforting dreams when I want to push Him away. This must be what it is to be wooed by God. He wants me and keeps coming after me even when I don't want Him to. I can't even begin to get my mind around it. Why would God do this?

~MJ