In which... I think I need a nap
But I can't have a nap because I have to meet with my prof in a little while and I wouldn't actually sleep in such a short period of time. Maybe I'll take a nap after I talk with him.
So, it's been a while...
Went home last weekend. We had lots of fun. The drive to and from was amazing -- well, the drive TO was cooler. I was really upset on the way back because my mom had said some things about my clothes which were... not nice. And I felt like crap and like she must hate me and I know that's NOT what she was saying, but my stupid brain automatically thinks "She hates me" (or he) if someone says something that's less than charitable about me. Stupid brain.
I've come to the conclusion that Shopko is bipolar. First I was out, then I was in...the latest is that I'm out again, apparently. But I don't know for sure. Like, I called on Monday to see when I was sheduled and I wasn't on the schedule and they had pulled my file folder thing that they put notes and the scheduled in. Nice. I'm so confused. I think God was just like, "This far and no further." They're such bullies over there... I think He has something way better for me than that.
Monday night rocked. I hung out with Ruthie and Heidi instead of going to Cru. It's sad that I get so much more out of hanging out with Ruthie and Heidi than I do going to Cru. I mean, one would think that with a Christian organization, you'd really get something out of being there -- but no. I'm not saying that it's anyone's fault or anything. I think it has more to do with the other attendees who only go because they were raised in church and want to hang around with other people who were raised in church. I always get the impression that when we are doing the Bible study and worship, everyone can't wait for it to be done so they can go tell sick jokes to each other and make fun of the people they refuse to talk to. Oh, how I loathe Cru... I mean, I don't loathe Cru. I just can't stand the attitude everyone has...
At lunch on Tuesday, I talked to Kris about the problem I have with Cru. He told me that he was going to talk to someone about people ignoring other people at Cru and I was like, "No way man -- it's not just me???" That was quite the revelation for me... I mean, I'm not the only one! So, I told him some ideas I had that could fix this problem and he said, "Oh, good. I'll share those with Andy when I meet with him tonight." He said, "You know, you should talk to Andy sometime." I was like, "I've heard that a time or two in the past few days..." Lol I talked to Kris again later and I told him that I think they need to talk about the fruits of the spirit and explain to everyone why it is important to not do what they're doing. I think that the most important thing is that they be made aware of what is going on and be given a reason as to why they need to change. They're not going to do anything if they aren't given a reason for doing it. I talked to Kris again at lunch today and he said that Andy liked my ideas and they're going to try to do it. Yay! When he said that, I was like, "Oh my goodness! They are actually taking me seriously??" Weird... THEN, I was just thinking about it a minute ago, and I think they should maybe do a skit where people kinda blow other people off and have the other people express their thoughts after this happens to them to demonstrate how critical this thing really is. Man, I could so write up a script for this thing...
Last night, I hung out with Ruthie, Heidi and Tony. I'm so confused. Not like, I'm losing sleep over it confused but -- I just don't get it. Like, Tony totally intimidates me, but at the same time, I'm drawn to him and I want to be around him all the time. He doesn't scare me at all -- but when he shows up, I just want to hide. But when he's not there, I want him to come. I've come to the conclusion that I really need to just hang out with him and do stuff with him when no one else is around and then he won't intimidate me anymore. He hugged me last night... It was nice. *Sigh* Some people give me a warm, fuzzy feeling.
Gotta meet the prof now. I love ya all.
~MK
So, it's been a while...
Went home last weekend. We had lots of fun. The drive to and from was amazing -- well, the drive TO was cooler. I was really upset on the way back because my mom had said some things about my clothes which were... not nice. And I felt like crap and like she must hate me and I know that's NOT what she was saying, but my stupid brain automatically thinks "She hates me" (or he) if someone says something that's less than charitable about me. Stupid brain.
I've come to the conclusion that Shopko is bipolar. First I was out, then I was in...the latest is that I'm out again, apparently. But I don't know for sure. Like, I called on Monday to see when I was sheduled and I wasn't on the schedule and they had pulled my file folder thing that they put notes and the scheduled in. Nice. I'm so confused. I think God was just like, "This far and no further." They're such bullies over there... I think He has something way better for me than that.
Monday night rocked. I hung out with Ruthie and Heidi instead of going to Cru. It's sad that I get so much more out of hanging out with Ruthie and Heidi than I do going to Cru. I mean, one would think that with a Christian organization, you'd really get something out of being there -- but no. I'm not saying that it's anyone's fault or anything. I think it has more to do with the other attendees who only go because they were raised in church and want to hang around with other people who were raised in church. I always get the impression that when we are doing the Bible study and worship, everyone can't wait for it to be done so they can go tell sick jokes to each other and make fun of the people they refuse to talk to. Oh, how I loathe Cru... I mean, I don't loathe Cru. I just can't stand the attitude everyone has...
At lunch on Tuesday, I talked to Kris about the problem I have with Cru. He told me that he was going to talk to someone about people ignoring other people at Cru and I was like, "No way man -- it's not just me???" That was quite the revelation for me... I mean, I'm not the only one! So, I told him some ideas I had that could fix this problem and he said, "Oh, good. I'll share those with Andy when I meet with him tonight." He said, "You know, you should talk to Andy sometime." I was like, "I've heard that a time or two in the past few days..." Lol I talked to Kris again later and I told him that I think they need to talk about the fruits of the spirit and explain to everyone why it is important to not do what they're doing. I think that the most important thing is that they be made aware of what is going on and be given a reason as to why they need to change. They're not going to do anything if they aren't given a reason for doing it. I talked to Kris again at lunch today and he said that Andy liked my ideas and they're going to try to do it. Yay! When he said that, I was like, "Oh my goodness! They are actually taking me seriously??" Weird... THEN, I was just thinking about it a minute ago, and I think they should maybe do a skit where people kinda blow other people off and have the other people express their thoughts after this happens to them to demonstrate how critical this thing really is. Man, I could so write up a script for this thing...
Last night, I hung out with Ruthie, Heidi and Tony. I'm so confused. Not like, I'm losing sleep over it confused but -- I just don't get it. Like, Tony totally intimidates me, but at the same time, I'm drawn to him and I want to be around him all the time. He doesn't scare me at all -- but when he shows up, I just want to hide. But when he's not there, I want him to come. I've come to the conclusion that I really need to just hang out with him and do stuff with him when no one else is around and then he won't intimidate me anymore. He hugged me last night... It was nice. *Sigh* Some people give me a warm, fuzzy feeling.
Gotta meet the prof now. I love ya all.
~MK
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